Emotional Roller Coaster

I am on such an emotional roller coaster for at least 6 months now and it took me until this weekend to finally figure out why!  So last year my husband and I kind of decided that this year we would start to expand our family.  So last July I stopped taking Birth Control to give my body some time to get back to a "normal" organic state.  Since then I have been on so many ups and downs with lots of side effects from not being on the pill.  This plan is now on hold due to circumstances that are slightly explained below.  I will try to explain in another post.

First, I had to welcome Acne back into my life again.  I've had to go through tons of product to find out what works best to fight my acne now.  Second, I didn't think my hair could get oilier but it sure as heck did.  Because I have oily hair I have to take a shower every morning.  Every day by 9am for about a month, it would look like I never took a shower at 7am.  NOT FUN!  Finally I had a hair appointment one day, so instead of putting my hair in a pony tail, I clipped it back with a hair clip and made myself not touch my hair the rest of the day.  My hair dresser saw my hair and freaked a little but she quickly knew what my problem was.  Third, my emotions are all over the place right now!  And I mean every where.  I'm to the point that I don't think I know how I really feel about some things.  I could want my own place one minute and five minutes later never leave this house or my husband.

This emotional roller coaster hasn't been helped by some events that have happened in the last 6 months or so.  My parents have both had surgeries, my godmother passed away and my husband is going to lose his job.  Some other things have come to light as well.  I recently got to spend a little quality time with an old coach and I didn't realize how hard it was on me when she left my freshman year in high school.  My cousin is now 4 or 5 months pregnant and I didn't really think it would affect me that she would be preggo first but it has.  So its needless to say that I am really trying to work on myself in a way and I am working on trying to enrich my life is as many ways as I can.

I hope you all are doing fine.  I really am going to try to update my blog a little more often.